Going Wireless
Well I setup a home wireless network over the weekend and what a cocksucker that was (Apologies for the language but I have been watching a lot of Deadwood lately). 10 hours from the concept of setting one up, to buying all the gear, installing it and getting it all secure, my flu-infested brain crashed so hard after the techno onslaught that I felt like I was run over by some seriously heavy machinery. I haven’t had a drinking session that has left me that beaten in a long time. Of course, it claims on the wireless router box “you’ll be setup within an hour”, that is assuming you’ve done this sort of networking before (I haven’t). Then again, when I spoke to some seriously geeky, experienced networking friends, it took two of them 6 hours to get everything perfect. Now that I have done it though, it was worth every headache inducing second because it gives me much more freedom to post on hoovy more regularly (I can see your mouths widen with glee at that very idea).
I’ve also been in this state of “where do I want to take my career?” kinda places. Lots of decisions to be made, what are my options, should I start writing again, developing a film project, even a short one. I really miss the energy of directing and working together as a team to realise a vision. I’ve made numerous contacts in my job that may enable me to progress and move into more creative directions. Despite my rather uncreative ‘front’ in an industry full of posers and ‘arty’ types, it only takes a coffee with me to see my creatives juices, knowledge and determination flow out of my pores. I’m hungry you see. Hungry not for success but for what I guess all creatives urge – creative synergy. Knowing that with the right talent involved, I can create something half decent and there’s a sense of original accomplishment that everyone involved can feel and be empassioned by. Self doubt of course rears its fugly head, doubt you’re not experienced enough to realise that vision. Knowing that sometimes it can take years and years to get to the level of accomplishment. And a lot of the time now, I’m a one-man show when it comes to creative work and projects. You learn a hellva lot that way but in the end, you can only get so far with doing everything yourself.
Maybe I’m being hard on myself or maybe I’m just being a realist. Either way, I’m still hungry looking for new opportunities and directions. So I’m going to keep pushing myself in every direction till I find one that fits at that particular point in time.
